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Friday, October 19, 2018

A Determined Nickki

Something that’s been on again/off again looks like it may be back to on. In texting with Nickki recently, I jokingly confessed that occasionally I have been fondly picturing her with ‘paddle in hand’. When I wrote it I was merely telling the truth, but without any expectation. However, my dear friend surprised me by replying that she has decided that she will indeed make this little scenario happen soon as a sort of early “birthday present” and told me to relate the news to Rosa….which I did.

As expected, Rosa was quite keen on the idea, as am I. One thing that came up in a sort of roundabout way during the texting was a mention of concern on Nickki’s part for feeling some pressure in meeting our expectations. I assured her that she should not worry about that and that Rosa felt the same way. After all, she was going to be the one “on Top” and other than maybe some basic safety tips, there really wasn’t anything she should be concerned over. She should just “have fun”.

Nickki then admitted in a follow-up text that she was fully on-board and had no internal conflict over doing this, but because it was text, it was hard for me to be clear on whether she was concerned that she might exceed my ‘fantasy expectations’ thus spoiling the fun, or not living up to them. And since she was at work and we discussing something else at the same time, I never really got to flesh that one out. That changed this Friday morning when I spent a few hours at Nickki’s house installing some ceiling fans.

While I was working, I asked her what she meant by her comment and she confirmed that it was what I had thought. She is quite comfortable with making a certain part of me appropriately UNcomfortable, but worried that I might not find her enthusiasm as ‘enjoyable’ as what I might be picturing in my head. Naturally I assured her that she need not be concerned about that and that if she was a little ‘over-enthusiastic’ in her delivery, I would not hold it against her and probably just respect her even more for displaying such disciplinary confidence.

Frankly, that has always been my interest in having Nickki deal with me directly. Nickki has a sort of dual nature, she has a wild side and a timid side. And the two fluctuate somewhat unpredictably. I also know that she personally enjoys watching somewhat intense bondage porn. So unlike Marta ( whose BDSM ‘experience’ was limited to reading “50 Shades”) she is not naive about what a body (or booty) can take. In addition she told me that the pictures of my bottom after getting the punishments she decreed, but delivered by Rosa, gave her a pretty clear idea of what I could handle. So in my mind, I always considered Nickki to be a potentially ‘serious’ (for fun) spanker.

Even Rosa has admitted that she thought Nickki was always just trying to work out some stuff in her head, but that once she did, she’d be an enthusiastic spanker. And Ana, who knows her well, admitted as much too. So the potential for this to be a real scorcher is more than just wishful thinking on my part. With ‘popular opinion’, my own hunch, and Nickki’s own words, it seems quite likely. And as you may expect, that possibility is less of a concern for Nickki, or Rosa, or Ana than it is for me. And that is the crux of the entire thing.

I am genuinely desirous of a “worse than expected” spanking at the hands of my dear friend…in fact I hope she roasts my butt as thoroughly as Rosa does when she’s upset…...BUT I am also worried that I might embarrass myself once such a session is underway. The last thing I ever want to do with a novice is scare them off by carrying on like they’re killing me, but I am also only human and I have been in that situation before. Not often, but I still vividly recall each time it happened and despite my willingness to endure such a punishment and my respect for the disciplinarian afterwards…...DURING those sessions, I am far less composed. On Friday I got to tell Nickki this directly. She not only understood but admitted that she fully expected to see me struggle with the spanking. In fact, she added that if I DID NOT show signs of sincere distress, she would hit harder until I did. So….so much for that! LOL

Given that view, I felt that perhaps this was the perfect time to confess my own “personal goal” with regard to our ‘adventure’. So I explained that I am fully prepared to end up with a butt that’s as red and hot, and swollen, and as sore to sit on as she’d like…...but that I may struggle hard with the process of getting there. However, I felt that as friends our relationship could be forever positively altered by a spanking that would ‘put me in my place’.

I explained that up until now I feel like I have been the instigator behind all this and also the “expert” or perhaps even the “know-it-all” whose experience might be intimidating or even annoying to friends or her in particular. In many ways I felt I might even come across as more dominant than submissive. Nickki agreed with most of that but assured me that she felt that my Dom/sub duality was specifically balanced and that my compliance with the punishments I’ve received demonstrated a pretty strong submissive side.
I asked her if she had any experience with giving a spanking and she assured me she did.  I joked that experience has taught me that while some spanking know-how can definitely aid a Top, none of a sub’s ‘experience’ is worth much once you’re over the lap of someone determined to make their own impression….even if they are a total novice, and she wholeheartedly agreed with a smile.

Cute photo, but Nickki definitely won't be satisfied just using her hand!

We went on to cover a few more issues, some of which I will save for another post. But I did learn that Nickki is doing this with her spouse Joann’s knowledge (even if she thinks we’re all crazy) and that makes me feel better about it all too. Nickki also said there were some ‘things’ she wanted to work into the session and we discussed the mechanics of making them happen. In order for this all to work out, Nickki said she will be conversing and collaborating with Rosa on details…...some of which she insisted were to remain a surprise. (And Rosa has told me that Nickki has already left her a voice message, so things are moving along. LOL)  She is even going to ask Rosa’s advice on which implement to use , but she did say that she definitely wants me OTK for the full ‘maternal experience’ and not just bent over something. So a lot was laid out in the open.

But the thing I really wanted to put out on the table was that I speculated that our relationship with each other would probably benefit from the readjusting of ‘roles’ that would inherently follow a good roasting. Up until now I have been the friend, handyman, and party host, and even with my submissive leanings, a bit of a dominant force in our friendship. If Nickki can spank me to a point where I am just a helpless, leg-kicking ‘sorry little white boy’, fully at her mercy, it would be very hard to erase that image or deny that new shift of power. And that is what I told her that I am looking for. I know what I am, but I also know what a darned good spanking from her could make me into. And the embarrassingly appealing footnote to that is that once done…..there would be no going back. Sure I can go on being the friend, advisor, handyman, expert, know-it-all, etc.,  but I will always be the guy who she had squirming on her lap. I admitted that I like that such an image will always be there going forward regardless of where we are, in the background perhaps but never gone. She replied that she hadn’t considered that outcome, but agreed that it was a likely, as well as an appealing and empowering, one.

Now it will just be a matter of scheduling and seeing how all of this lovely speculation plays out in real life. I want to be hopeful, but I have been disappointed too many times in the past so I am going to try to remain cautiously optimistic but not too eager.

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

Middle of the road

Today I'm going to briefly discuss a few positions that should highlight why we are in the state we are in as a society. The first is the position on information on food. I have a good friend who is by no means an ignorant person, but who is very far left on many things. Recently we were discussing the government's role in people's eating habits. He thinks there needs to be more money spent on educating people over food choices and he even supports things like taxes on soda. 

Now I can't even remember the last time I drank soda, so trust me when I say I am no soda advocate......BUT....a tax? To get people to stop drinking something that is probably not good for them? No. This a personal choice ....with personal responsibility attached. And I also think that nowadays, there is plenty of information out there which is easily accessible to anyone on food. I asked him if he thought spending more money on this was really the answer when the information was already everywhere, including "Health Classes" in schools, and that the people still eating unhealthily are doing so out of choice?  He said that people needed to be steered into the right choices, even by penalty taxes if necessary. 

In other words, the government should have full authority to guide us into what 'is best' for us'. AND THAT is the problem with the far left.

Now, on the other side of the coin, you have conservatives who think this way:

When I first saw this all I could think of was adding a caption of my own:
"This is the opinion of  the late Mr. & Mrs. Jones......both deceased due to lung cancer related to smoking cigarettes...prior to warning labels."

The far right is only after a buck and they disguise corporate irresponsibility in the guise of folksy "caveat emptor" common sense. But that too is nonsense. If something has a carcinogen in it, I WANT TO KNOW! Likewise for anything else that may be a concern. Granted conservatives love to point to things like the warning that coffee might be hot in order to discount warnings of any kind, but that is again why we are in the state we're in. Someone thought that "hot" label was a good way to avoid a lawsuit from a stupid person but is that really the fault of the stupid person? or the company trying to settle the issue? or the fucking JURY that found in favor of the burnt, coffee-spilling idiot?

But the answer from the conservatives is that we don't need any regulations on business and everyone just needs to make their own decisions....even if without information those decisions will be made in relative ignorance of the potential dangers. And THAT is what is wrong with the far right.

And lastly let's talk about something I have seen develop in my lifetime: the yield to pedestrian in crosswalk law. WHO THE FUCK THOUGHT THIS ONE UP? Did that person think this was a GOOD idea? Because here is my 'middle ground' take on it:

Growing up in the 60's there was a famous commercial we kids got blitzed with constantly warning us with a catchy jingle to not cross in the middle and 'wait for the green'.  So there you have the warning: follow the simple rules of street crossing and you'll be safer.

Now I have been around zones where this sign is everywhere:

And what I have seen is that it has made people dangerously callous to their own self-preservation. As a pedestrian I have no problem walking to a crosswalk and waiting for a light to change. In fact I prefer it to just going into one of these crosswalks and hoping someone will just stop. And as a driver I hate these things.....because they have so emboldened clueless pedestrians to just walk into the street that sometimes I barely see them before it's almost too late. 

Recently I was driving around the University of Pittsburgh and students were just walking out in front of me from every direction. I could barely drive a block without having to stop and wonder who was going to pop out next and from where. However, in Jersey City, where Ana goes, their students also have crosswalks, BUT they are required to let the light change before just walking out into the street. That just makes sense!

So what we have done with these new pedestrian crossings, in the name of safety, is make people more of a danger to themselves. And that's where we are at as a society. We have one group that thinks it's every man for himself and another that thinks that some benevolent guardian needs to protect everyone from everything. Doesn't it just make more sense to go to the logical middle: GIVE PEOPLE THE INFORMATION THEY NEED TO BE SAFE, AND THEN REASONABLY EXPECT THEM TO ACT SAFELY? 

But a lot of this has to do with the people themselves. They are after all the ones occupying those jury seats when some silly litigation awards money to an idiot..... thus forcing someone else to enact a ridiculous law or attach an obvious warning label. Then when people get sick of this, they swing the pendulum back to the opposite extreme and try to cap awards in cases where companies ARE at fault and eliminate labeling that could very well be life-saving. 

And as always, it's always "the other idiot". I am sure that the person who created the anti-warning label meme would be the first to litigate for millions if their kid ended up hurt or dead because of the LACK of a warning label, and perhaps even the far left activist rolls their eyes at hearing about someone who sued over hot coffee. But until we can use logic and reason instead of emotion, we are doomed to keep going from ditch to ditch. Maybe what we need is a street sign that would encourage both sides to safely meet in the middle of the road?

Monday, October 15, 2018

Disney Politics

OK, so if Trump called Elizabeth Warren "Pocahontas" because he didn't believe she had any Native American ancestry........

........and he used to claim Barrack Obama was born in Kenya.......

......and both claims have turned out to be utterly untrue, (link to Elizabeth Warren's DNA test) would that make Trump......

...........Pinocchio? After all he does come across as a puppet (Putin's) whose desire to be regarded as a "real boy" (i.e. taken seriously) is thwarted by his compulsive lying. Maybe if he keeps up this reckless mendacity, he should end up like the clock-boy in "Pinocchio"?

Sunday, October 14, 2018

O-ctober (2nd half)

Up until today October has been an alternating cycle of an "O" one day and a tease the next. Today marks the last day of "tease only", meaning that as of tomorrow I will be having an "O"every night and a tease each morning.

After having spent years with very limited orgasmic release, I had wondered how my body would adjust to this new regimen of relative frequency. I have been pretty surprised at how quickly my body seems to have adapted to the new routine. The only side effect has been a little bit of rawness from all of the friction......but nothing too bad.

Now going to a daily diet will really test me. I have yet to feel like "oh no, not again" and am wondering if I will experience that in the next two weeks or just welcome each release? 

It will also be interesting to see what November will feel like after having had all of these frequent releases and then going to none.

Friday, October 12, 2018

Befuddled genius

Dave Chapelle said that Kanye West is a genius and I know there are times when a genius speaks and the average people around them can’t comprehend what they are saying.................... but the same is also true for idiots and crazy people. So when someone utters something like this about the 13th Amendment:

 “Why would you keep something around that’s a trap door? If you’re building a floor, the Constitution is the base of our industry, of our country, of our company. Would you build a trap door that if you mess up and accidentally something happens, you fall and you end up next to the Unabomber? You got to remove all that trap door out of the relationship.”

….you have to wonder if it is truly a genius speaking, or someone considerably less cerebral.

Thursday, October 11, 2018

Curious fate

So, yesterday......rather than watch my 401K crumble....I decided to take the advice of my wife and son and focus on more pleasant things. In my case, this is easily done through working on Halloween. Now one of the things I told myself going into this year was that I really didn't need to buy anything new or do too much in the way of additional props. Yes, there were a few things that needed to be repaired, and there were some minor projects that I wanted to do to enhance existing set-ups ( like my outdoor "Headless Horseman" ), but nothing on the scale of making the full-sized corpse I did last year! LOL

However, on a trip to Michael's with Ana, I saw this figure set of Lemax zombies that just sort of called out to me.

The strange thing is this set must have been a "made for Michael's exclusive" because any internet search of any Lemax site shows each of these folks being part of different sets. Mine however, came as a couple.

Once I saw the crawling female zombie, I had all sorts of thoughts and had difficulty settling on one. But, fate sort of stepped in by having me drop my crawling skeleton on the hard floor, breaking it into several pieces.

 Since I had to fix it, it got me thinking and I decided to kill two birds with one stone and go for something near and dear to my heart. The one thing I hate about Lemax is the crappy quality.....BUT I love how easy it is to customize them. So, with the help of some spare parts, tools, and some Milliput, I brought the zombie girl back to vibrant life.....but tore up her dress. 

I can't help but picture the young lady thinking: 
"and here I thought that zombies only wanted to eat brains!"

And here they all are in Sunnydale, mingling with the crowd.

The thing is, while I love this new addition, I'll need to amend my Sunnydale story (link)  to include this little scene. And I'm not sure what to do with that. There's a certain ambiguity to the piece now that lets any viewer sort of decide for themselves what's going on, or about to happen, and once I commit to my own interpretation, that flexibility is lost.

It's not something I have to do right away.....or I suppose even at I have time to figure out what this little scene is actually depicting. What do you all think? What's the fate of this buxom, raven-haired beauty?

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Unequal rights

So I have a question: If a person has the 'right' to deny the validity of climate change, why don't I have the right to deny having my tax money used to bail them out when their property floods? It just doesn't seem fair to me.

Climate change denier wondering why his god went back on his word to never again destroy the earth with water.

So, that U.N. report is a little scary, eh? Well to those of us who think that scientists studying these changes may actually know what they are talking about. To others I guess it's just business as usual. (Maybe Trump always wanted Trump Tower in NYC to beachfront property and this was his way of achieving it?)