Well, OK, my "writer's block" may not be as dire as Jack Torrance's but I do seem to be suffering from it to a degree. I have a new short story that has been complete for well over a month. The story is technically finished and it has its moments........but something's missing. It's .......o-kaaaaay, but merely OK, and not what I would like to think a "KDPierre" story should be. I have been reluctant to post it on the website and have delayed doing so in the hopes that in re-reading it, some idea or added twist would pop into my head to rescue the piece from its mediocrity. But so far? Nothing.
The thing is, a part of me has been growing increasingly frustrated with writing spanking and BDSM-type stories without making a greater connection with my readers. I think I put out a good product and I have a small, loyal following that I genuinely appreciate, but it is most decidedly a small following. Those that 'get' what I'm doing seem to really appreciate it, but the majority of 'spank-story readers' either don't like the usually "F/m" orientation, or they find my stories to be implausible (even though many are based on actual events from my life. Go figure.) In fact, I believe that my stories really only resonate well with people who actually live the lifestyle, but it seems that the majority of spank-story readers do not live it and many have never been on either end of a spanking. Reading (and writing) stories is how these people seem to cope with their unfulfilled spanking interests...................but it also makes these readers unfamiliar with the thoughts and connections I try to portray in my pieces.
It seems like a M/f story with a high degree of justice/comeuppance rings most of these people's bells. But not mine. In fact, I find I don't relate to most stories I read. Oh, there are a few that I really like, but the ratio of what I like to what is out there is depressingly low. And yet those very same stories that do nothing for me seem to resonate with more people than mine. Many stories I read seem like they've been written by people who have only imagined the activities they are writing about. They claim this should not make a difference, but it does. I can almost always tell when a spank-story author is a spank-virgin.
I appreciate the ring of truth even more than great style. It is why I would rather read a simply written forum post from a real person living the lifestyle than yet another schoolgirl caning adventure from a polished author.
Like I said, it's very hard for me to find something I like. And now, I can't even write a story I like.
Maybe if I agreed to "hotel-sit" this winter?