As a result of this burden easing, the stress seems to have eased as well resulting in Rosa foreseeing something else in my near future:
Rosa said that due to the prior stress she had been very lenient with me and let a lot of things slide. But now, she sees no reason to get back on track with regard to the less playful and more genuine aspects of accountability and discipline that is part of our relationship. She said she will not hesitate to re-establish order.
Prior to this, our "DD" sort of went on hold. I was far too stressed to be held strictly accountable and she told me often how she would love to get back to where we were but did not have the heart to add real discipline on top of the ass-kicking life was handing me. It appears that situation has changed.
For those of you who practice DD, you know what this means. To those of you who are more into role-play and kinky spice, I should briefly explain that this comment from Rosa is not a "wow, glad that's over. Now we can really relax and play again"-type remark. It's more like when you were a kid and you were sick and your mother let a lot of things go by unpunished until the day you were all better and happy and energetic........and she called you over and said, "now that you're feeling better, we need to discuss some things." And you knew that you were guilty of all sorts of things that had nothing to do with your recent illness and now that there was no illness standing in the way, you were going to get it but good.
To be honest, I think I've given my Honey enough attitude in the last couple of months to justify her apparent eagerness to get me back on track. I doubt I could not even seek support from my step-kids (who I've been snippy with as well) or even my neighbor, Marta (who has heard me snap at Rosa more than once), on this score! So I am resolved to whatever she decides. And knowing her as I do, I doubt it will be as enjoyable for me as it will be for her.