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Tuesday, May 18, 2021

And the 'Game' continues!

Due to being very busy yesterday, my morning tease while Rosa dressed was the only for of that day, BUT, today we are right back to the hourlies! One of the things I forgot to mention in my haste yesterday was that at one point last week, I took my massager outside to the shed in my yard so that I could do my teases on time in mid-project, while not trudging dirt into the bedroom every hour. 

The shed that has electric to power the massager is also more like a hybrid greenhouse with a lot of windows and big French doors. So 'doing it' in there added a little possibility of exposure (though VERY unlikely) to overly curious neighbors. The glare on the glass looking from outside is quite obscuring however and we do have privacy fencing too. Still teasing with bright sunshine all around and a breeze blowing did add a layer to my situation.

Teasing in the bright light of day.

Yes we have a sink in that shed, so no, this is not our bathroom! LOL

Today I will be doing some painting/staining outside on a kind of 'boardwalk' I constructed. So, 8:00 will likely be my last indoor edge for a while and I'll be back in that shed for the greater part of the day. I HAVE definitely noticed the time it takes to get to that precipitous "edge" has grown significantly shorter......though no less frustrating!

And as I said yesterday, there is quite a lot more going on as well! 


Monday, May 17, 2021

Like a leaky faucet

 


I have been reduced to a leaky faucet. I don't mean my age has finally rendered me incontinent (I'm hoping I have a few more years before THAT happens, at least). No, I mean that a little "game" Rosa and I have been playing recently has made me more like this:

Not me, but other than this guy's age and body hair color, that does look a like like mine......especially when it worked a bit better. LOL And the oozing is extremely accurate!

Last week on Thursday, after our mortgage signing on Wednesday, Rosa and I felt playful and initiated a game we've played before on days where she was working: hourly edges with no release. We started the day off before she began working with me kissing her feet while self-teasing, and ended the day with her teasing me as I revisited those sweet tootsies of hers. In-between, as I worked in the yard, on each new hour, I'd apply our massager just long enough to bring me to near ejaculation and then stop.  (That's a lot of teasing!)

OK, LOL, THIS time it IS me, not because I'm showing off, since I have nothing brag about, but because the practice of using a single vibrator to edge (without all sorts of bondage and gear) simply can't be found in an image search! 

The effect on me was profound. I felt open and devoted and way more submissive. Rosa liked the effect so much that continuing this practice on Friday seemed a no-brainer. By midday Friday, I was going about my chores and activities literally with damp boxers! I would start a tease off just fine and get to that special point and stop. But a minute or so after stopping, I'd find "pre-cum" oozing from me in varying quantities. Multiply that by the hours in a day and you start to get the picture!

Rosa was amused by it all but also seemed willing enough to grant final "O" permission if I wanted it. The funny thing is, I wasn't getting cranky or irritable from the frustration, but more and more subby and compliant! We discussed it and speculated that maybe the attention made the difference? It seems if I'm O-less for a long time because we're busy or stressed or for some un-fun reason, I DO get cranky after a while. BUT if that same denial is intentional and sexy, and accentuates the frustration as something of a goal, then it seems that the longing becomes more sweet torture than real torture.

In the midst of all this other things were going on too, and I will write about them another time, but soon. However, I did have a few exchanges via text with my Monster, Ana over other things, but when she asked me about my day, I couldn't help but confess my situation, especially since she is well aware of my O-dependency on others and approves. She did indeed find my situation amusing and I mentioned something about wondering how long I should keep this going, and, given the context of what we HAD been discussing, Ana suggested Wednesday. Well, that seemed like a good a day as any and so Wednesday became the target date. (Thanks, Monster)

Saturday ended up a third day of teasing. And Sunday we were out, so the hourly teases weren't possible, but I did have one this morning while watching Rosa dress. ( a lot of leaking after THAT one!) LOL.   

So three days of hourly edges have left me in a profound state of subbiness and it managed to influence quite a few things going on around me. But like I said, another time for THAT. 




Friday, May 14, 2021

The Bureaucrat

Oh my, but there's a lot going on! The only problem is time is at a premium, but I will eventually share as much as I can. The other day Rosa and I signed our closing papers on a mortgage refinancing to take advantage of the current rates. The thing is it took an inordinately long amount of time to get from application to final approval, and none of it was based on anything REAL. In other words, the important aspects, the money, property value, income, etc. were all just dandy, but the bureaucrats in charge of the paperwork were not satisfied with anything other than  absurdly specific forms, many of which were not easily obtained. 

The experience is finally over and everything is good. SO good that it has resulted in a kind of 'sigh-of-relief' recharging of our kinky sides! But more on that to come. Today I will be posting a short story I wrote as a kind of personal therapy during the more bizarre moments in the process of getting our new mortgage. It is a kind of tongue-in-cheek observation of the inane nature of bureaucracy and those entrenched within that paper morass. I offered to share it with my loan officer, but he declined. Enjoy.



Heaven? Hell? All that matters is the Paperwork


The soul of a bureaucrat floats up to the Pearly Gates and seeks admission. St. Peter says, “you certainly qualify, but to get in, you need a ‘Trinity-3.0’ admission form. It says here in my book that you were something of a bureaucrat in your past life and so I’m sure you understand.”

“Well, of course! That makes perfect sense. Where can I get one?”

St. Peter responds, “I can give you one right here, but before I can do that, you’ll need a ‘Form 666’ from Satan, stating he has no claim or interest in you. You’ll need to stop off at Hell for that one, but it’s OK, they’re actually pretty efficient, but then I suppose they’d have to be to deal with the volume of entrants they process.”

So the bureaucrat goes down below to find Satan and a bunch of demons buried under stacks of paperwork. The devil, however, appears calm and in control. Though evil, he seems a  consummate professional and deftly pulls a ‘Form 666’ out from a cauldron and signs it, emancipating the person from any hellbound liability. “Here you go.”

The bureaucrat, impressed by the efficiency St. Peter had foretold, turns to leave when Satan interrupts. “Whoa, whoa, whoa. Where are you going so fast?”

The bureaucrat, waving his Form 666 responds, “why up to Heaven, of course.”

Satan rolls his eyes in exasperation. “That’s fine, but first you need to show me your copy of your Trinity-3.0 admission form. Otherwise how do we know you’re welcome up there?”

“But I can’t get the Trinity 3.0 without getting the Form 666 first. That’s why I’m here.”

“Hmmmm, that’s true,” the devil muses while stroking his beard. “But it’s equally true that you can’t leave here without the Trinity 3.0. It’s policy.” After some thought Satan speculates, ”I suppose you could apply for a ‘Special dispensation Tri-3 override’. I have a copy right here.” Satan rummages through another cauldron and pulls out a multi-page form the thickness of ‘War and Peace'

The bureaucrat stares in awe at its length and complexity and observes, “this is going to take forever!” Though a part of him is secretly comforted by the mindless rigidity of these afterlife regulations.

Satan snickers, “yes, I believe that’s the point,”  as he hands over a piece of sharpened charcoal to write with. “Now  don’t smudge it, or we can’t accept it and you’ll have to start over.”

“Don’t you have a pen?” the bureaucrat asks. “In heaven they had pens. St. Peter had a stack of them.” 

Satan laughs. “Well of course they have pens in heaven! They have EVERYTHING up there. But you’re down here, and things here are a little more ……..inconvenient. It’s kind of a theme we’ve got going……..but at least we are always open. Those guys,” the devil points up derisively, “close up shop every Sunday.” Then the devil recalls, “I do believe there is one pen around that some lawyer once snuck down here. There is a waiting list for it though. Let’s see, you’d be # 3,089,675,732. But when the others are done with it….and there’s any ink left, it’s yours.”

“Is there at least a place I can work on it with my charcoal? Somewhere with a flat surface?”

The devil points to a spot across from a little lava pool where a huge crowd is feverishly filling out  the same form, and says, “certainly. You can go over there with the other bureaucrats. Some of them have been at it a long time and are very familiar with that form.....though being what they are, I tend to doubt they’ll offer any help. In all eternity I can’t recall any of them ever helping anyone.” The devils leaned back in his office chair with his hands behind his horns. “You know, I used to send some demons over there every now and then to kind of mess with them while they were working, but after seeing how they constantly bicker with each other over the right or wrong way to complete the form, I realized they were doing a fine job of tormenting each other without any outside provocation. It’s saved me a lot on labor. Heck, I’ve even offered a few of the real sticklers a job tormenting the actual condemned souls here. They’re naturals at driving people crazy with technical minutia.”

As he slowly approaches his colleagues the bureaucrat turns and asks, “you said those souls are all fellow bureaucrats? Where are all the other people?”

“Oh, they’re either up there with feathered wings or somewhere down here roasting away, depending on the life they’ve led,” the devil replies matter-of-factly.

“But what about their forms?” the bureaucrat asks.

“Oh no. There are no forms for them. We just do what makes sense with each of them on a case-by-case basis. It’s one of the few things heaven and us agree on. No, the forms are just for you folks. We want you to feel at home.”

And with that, the bureaucrat realizes that maybe the devil is right. Maybe for a dedicated bureaucrat an eternity of filling out forms regardless of venue, is still a kind of heaven, and goes off to join the others no matter how long it takes. Of course for the rest of us souls, their fate didn’t seem heavenly or hellish…...just very, very fair and appropriate.




 

Thursday, May 13, 2021

4 Bosses (conclusion)

(ROSA, cont'd) While behavioral obedience can be complicated by circumstances, emotions, and even psychological baggage from the past, one area of obedience for me is much simpler......though not always easy: sexuality. I've already written about part of this in depth so I won't go into it all again, but within the context of Rosa as "Boss", the one area where there are NEVER any gray areas or points of contention is her complete and total authority over all of our relationship's sexuality. Not merely my orgasms, but nearly anything sexual. She can demand an O and get it without argument, she can tell me to wear something special to enhance a mood, and she can grant or deny me access to my own body as she deems fit. And for whatever reason, even when I would prefer something different, she gets her way. I can suggest, ask, seduce,......whatever......for her these are merely opportunities to act on or decline. 

One last area of expected obedience is simple doting! One perk of being the dominant partner is that not only do you get to call the shots, but you kind of have a built-in servant in your sub. Rosa gets pedicures on demand along with coffee, tea, or whatever else she needs from me. It's not totally fair that she might help if I ask her, and often does, but that she expects me to obey these directions from her whenever she issues them. And to be completely honest? I'm more than fine with that!

"Pop in a plug and make me a coffee."

So in more ways than one, she certainly is the person in my life who expects and receives the broadest aspects of my obedience.

ANA: Those familiar with this blog probably feel they know my Monster pretty well by now. She is by far the next person after her mother who gleans a pretty broad chunk of my obedience. This too I have written about before, but considering her age and relation to me, the genuine amount of influence she wields is astounding.

Having Ana as a "boss" is like getting reviewed by a much younger executive with very high standards and no hesitation in resorting to stern disciplinary action when needed. 

The impressive aspect of Ana's authority is the polite and even charming way she exerts her will. One would think that a young person with her power would be tempted to abuse it, and yet she never has! This is not to say she isn't often mischievous, but even these times are more of a mutual play-bonding between us than purely selfish whims. And anyone here also knows that Ana has no reluctance to make her feelings known about my behavior or anything I do to hurt her feelings, and also no reluctance to impose fairly severe punishments via "Discipline Slips" that are then acted upon by Rosa. 

As someone who grew up in our open DD household and who was apportioned varying degrees of her own authority from a fairly early age, Ana is fully aware of what 'discipline' means. She also talks to me openly about this lifestyle and reads this blog (when she has the time). When Ana is upset with me and writes out a 'slip', usually after we discuss and resolve the issue, and assigns a punishment spanking of hundreds or sometimes 1000 spanks, she isn't doing so naively. She knows EXACTLY what that means for me. She knows her mother will take any slip she issues seriously and spank me hard. If the number is very high, Ana knows this will mean a series of spankings, with each one becoming harder to take. And she wants me to experience that third spanking on a sore bottom because THAT is what she feels is appropriate and knows is utterly devoid of any enjoyment.

Letting her Mom do the honors doesn't take away from me knowing who that spanking is actually from.

Like her mother, she rarely extends her overall role into areas outside of my actual behavior. In other words she doesn't try to just generally order me around. The only other thing she is entitled to, is to "ask" for "treats" and the occasional doting as well. We both find this funny, because the treats are invariably little things like a special brand of snack chip, or some book she finds on one of our treks to Barnes & Noble and she asks for them in a solicitously polite way, while we both know her request is not going to be refused. ( A typical expression of this is a text I might get if she's going to be home about whether I'm going food shopping anytime soon, and if so would I please get her some _____? While this sounds downright simple and normal, her text is understood by us both to be more like: "make sure I have some _________ when I get back home." ) Recently she told me that she always liked this side of her authority (what kid wouldn't?) but felt very timid about using it.....initially. One of the things she likes about where we are now is the way she feels she grew into her ability to ask for things from me with far less trepidation. Even still, while she knows her little requests are really more like expectations, she never asks for anything extreme.

During one of our talks we discussed the day-to-day reality of our relationship and she, again just like her mother, sees nothing extraordinary about our situation. Instead she feels everything is just as it should be for who we all are, and that means that despite me having several decades on her, and despite our love for each other, that within the parameters of the areas described, Ana does expect my obedience as a given and sees no reason that our relative ages should be any kind of conflicting or mitigating factor. In her mind, she knows she is more than qualified to monitor my behavior, and while she may respect my age, experience, and knowledge in other regards, in this area, who she is as a person outweighs all of that, and she has a hefty discipline slip at the ready if my obedience falters.

NICKKI: Readers here also 'know' Nickki by now! Our growing tally of adventures has been well documented here in words and pictures. Like Ana, Nickki's authority is derived from an arrangement with Rosa and me, and made possible only through Rosa's consent. None of us would have it any other way. But within that overall condition comes a lot of latitude. And with Nickki this also means a direct 'hands-on' approach! 

Nickki needs only to have cause to contact me or Rosa and then secure Rosa's consent to have me report to her for discipline. This too took time. Nickki and I are friends first, and friends who care about each other tend to tread lightly with things that could become volatile. Punishing a friend for some transgression can be tricky, and it took a while for Nickki to wrap her head around it all. I too had to make some adjustments in how we interacted. As a result, we are simultaneously the same as we once were when we became friends, and different. And that difference could ultimately be reduced to the recurring theme here of obedience albeit select, specified obedience

The trick with us is navigating the weird waltz of buddies on somewhat equal terms, and two people committed to two very different, yet solid roles: she being a dominant, and me being submissive. For me it means, being me, but doing so....cautiously. There are no usual honorifics in play (except at those specific times when I am about to be punished) and there are no expectations of service, deference, or anything other than just doing our things together. The difference for her is that there is an underlying understanding that IF something goes awry, she has tangible recourse. 

It is within that recourse or within any time....even for 'fun'....that I find myself with a bare bottom facing her paddle, that I see myself being almost desperately obedient. Nickki likes to totally control a spanking, even for fun/payment/etc. and I admire that. And she does so with unwavering confidence and an expectation that even if I might not be obliged to obey her every whim at other times, in this situation, SHE is not to be trifled with. She will ask questions, and expect answers, she will want me to use certain terms, or present myself a certain way. If I am not in a position she likes, she barks a command of where she wants me.....and if I hesitate even the slightest, her hand is quick and merciless with the paddle. 

A past spanking that included a serious half and a 'fun' half. But while technically only "half serious" you can easily see that the end result to my butt was ALL serious!

So when I think of obedience with respect to my 'bosses', I see Rosa's authority as the most pervasive and Ana's close behind, but while Nickki's field of authority is a bit more limited, within that narrow scope, it is intense! Simply put, NO ONE can make me scramble to frantically appease than Nickki! She snaps and I obey!

MARTA: Marta is in a tough spot. On one hand, she seems more than willing to enjoy my deference, and even has shown an inclination to discipline if necessary. However, her husband, Wally, while tolerant of her role with us, doesn't really seem comfortable with it extending too far. As a result, Marta has kind of settled on a middle ground of sorts. She saves up her dominant energy for when she can be the "Village Disciplinarian" at our annual RenFaire, and concedes any other times to the competencies of her good buddy, Rosa. 

Marta a few years back, giving Nickki a few swats.

But Marta also sees my relationship with Rosa in contrasting couplets: she was a bit shocked by it, but then found it to be a great arrangement. She has reacted to my punishments with both an awed sense of "wow! She really gave it to you" and also a "but you got what was coming to you" kind of approval. And the one thing she definitely shares with Rosa, Ana, and Nickki, is the belief (which she has clearly expressed to me in the past) that I am right where I should be with regard to roles, accountability, and ......yes.....spankings that aren't 'fun' but real bun-burners meant to teach a lesson. And as someone included in the circle of 'ladies with authority, she too feels quite qualified and deserving of the honor. 

Marta really likes to tease me about my situation, and will use her given authority to make certain demands on me in a playfully bossy way. Perhaps because she is the least able to act on her authority directly, she seems more prone to messing with me verbally. She is definitely the most publicly (though playfully) bossy of the four. And there is no question that she gets a kick out of telling me something with a kind of emphatic "you heard me, right?" reminder that she has no problem with having Rosa deal with me if I don't obey her to her liking. 

SYNOPSIS of my BOSSES:

Edited to add this perfect image suggested by CK:
Goya's "The Straw Mannequin"
(Or "KDP and His Four Bosses")

ROSA: Main Boss to whom all other bosses defer. My "Honey" who clearly wields the most influence over me and the person I try to obey most. Her authority encompasses behavior, my sexual outlets, and her own perk of being pampered on demand.

Natural dominant, reasonable 'boss', but capable of being strict and stern when needed. Spanks hard when she wants to, but can be playful as well.

My future wish/goal is something she and I just recently discussed which is a re-energizing of our arrangement with a bit of 'ramping up' my obedience and her punishments.....starting with one we discussed is long overdue.

ANA: Unquestioned "Second-in-Line". While she still needs her mother's approval for stuff with me, at this point it is practically a formality, since she is never overruled. Also someone whom I find myself obeying in a lot of ways.

Another natural dominant, but one for whom the more extreme expressions of this lifestyle are not a driving desire in her own life. Doesn't spank, but decrees them via a "Discipline Slip". Her punishments are known for their very high numbers, but she too can be very playful as well.

My future wish/goal with Ana is perhaps an exploration of how her "polite" requests can even further evolve into more direct commands.

NICKKI: A little more limited in her range of authority but very confident and intense within the areas she knows are hers. 

Yet another natural dominant, but one who needed some experience in order to see the difference between BDSM sensation play and DD, but  who now totally "gets it" and loves the power. A fireball of a spanker, blending scolds and spanks with an attitude that sends me scrambling to obey her every whim and yet still sends me home with a blazing butt!

My future wish/goal for Nickki is unfortunately something that isn't possible under our current agreed-upon conditions for our arrangement. I just found that the couple of times Nickki had me naked added a layer of embarrassment that was quite profound. Being a Lesbian, it wasn't a sexual thing, and that even added to my embarrassment because what was on display was doubly discounted: partly for being a male part, and second for not even being a great specimen of a male part .....which she would tease me about. So to be naked with someone who is not interested in what is being exposed, and even finds it something to be joked about, is very blush-inducing to someone who doesn't easily blush. But given how things are with us, I can easily live without this added twist. It's not a driving desire....just a potentially impactful add-on.


MARTA: An interesting paradox. Marta acts the least and yet, given her regard among us, has the potential to exert quite a bit of influence and authority. And since she kind of knows this, verbally messes with me routinely more than anyone else. Her raised eyebrow orders to me in front of everyone are her signature forms of dominant expression.

Still yet another natural dominant, but one for whom circumstance has limited her growth. She would almost certainly dominate her husband if he was into it, and she would definitely take a more active hand with me if he was more open to it. Her dominance is expressed mostly verbally, although she has, and could still, tell Rosa to punish me for whatever I do that upsets her. She seems to enjoy these kinds of threats more than acting upon them.....or is using them because she feels she CAN'T act on them personally. 

My future wish/goal couldn't be simpler: I wish she'd feel more comfortable telling Rosa to spank me for something, or hell......just doing it herself right then and there with the special wooden spoon I made her that she proudly keeps on display in her kitchen. I don't see this happening though due to the restrictive environment she's in. 



Wednesday, May 12, 2021

Having 4 'Bosses'

(Part 1) What is it like to have people in one's life, outside of a work environment, who have some degree of authority over you?  As someone in this situation, I'd like to explore the nuances and realities of just such a lifestyle. 

I should begin by clarifying that by most standards of submission, I'm probably not the most meek and unquestioning of submissives, BUT to the degree that I consent and trust to someone else's authority, I do honor that arrangement fairly faithfully. In my case, I count four people who have some level of "boss" power: naturally #1 is my wife, Rosa, the "head boss" to whom the other three defer for approval. #2 is unquestionably Ana, her daughter, who has more autonomy than the others and who is more apt to use her authority, though very responsibly.....or at times mischievously, but never abusively. #3 is Nickki who routinely seeks Rosa's "permission" or approval for whatever decisions she makes regarding me and my behavior. And finally there is #4, Marta, who technically has the same level of trust from Rosa and me as Nickki, but whose situation and perhaps personality, results in a much less overt display of authority.

My 4 bosses as portrayed by models in the glamorized version of my life. LOL

Before going into these ladies individually, let's discuss obedience. If one has a boss, the implication is that said boss has authority to give direction, and to hold their subordinate accountable. In a less formal and more domestic setting, this could simply be reduced to being obeyed. Now as I said earlier, I am not the most deferential submissive. Even with Rosa I don't consider my obedience absolute. Instead it's restricted to certain areas and is somewhat conditional. In other words, at my most compliant, I will still only obey directions in areas I've agreed to, and only when I trust the command is coming from a healthy place. (to be honest, though, with the people involved, this is rarely a problem) 

None of these people seek to order me about in things they know I'm more qualified to deal with. In fact, most will seek MY advice on many things. Therefore to just toss arbitrary commands at me merely to flaunt power, would be ridiculous. And as such, all of these ladies are quite content to rule over their select kingdoms......and in those kingdoms I am an obedient vassal. Now let's look at those realms and rulers.

My Rosa pointing to some amusingly appropriate graffiti. Despite the sentiment, the "everything" is not as accurate in real life as it might be for some.  But we do joke along these lines since she often gets her way even in areas where her authority is not absolute.

ROSA: Clearly my wife, lover, & friend first and foremost, but also someone with a personality and temperament suited to help guide me through my weak spots. I am not lazy, I don't shirk chores, I have little issue with overindulgence and am very responsible about adhering to healthy decisions without needing outside help. I am also knowledgeable and know how to get stuff done. So, what does Rosa help with? My moods! I can get hyper, impatient, cranky, snarky, and even defeatist at times. The latter issue Rosa combats with reassurance. But the others, she combats with her paddle. 

The look that means business! Rosa certainly loves me, but she is no softy when it comes to discipline. If I deserve it, she will roast my hinder with guiltless determination. And to her, that's nothing exceptional....just the natural order of things. 

So what about actual obedience? For us this doesn't mean Rosa will tell me every little thing to do. She won't use her role to determine important issues best made jointly. But she WILL say something like: "Okay, now tonight I want you to be nice with __________ and not start an argument over something silly. I want to have fun because I've been stressed all week, so just keep the conversation light" before we visit some friend or have someone over. ( She has, though not frequently, spanked me pre-emptively in similar situations just as a kind of tangible exclamation point to her command.) And in this realm I know she is usually right and I defer to her authority. I obey. 

She will also point out where I said something upsetting, or treated her or someone else callously or impatiently. Again, for me, being aware of my predisposition to this fault, I rarely protest and when she says, "I don't like how you __________, come with me!" I obey. Also.....as I said in the caption....despite her 'limited' authority, she gets her way in many other things.... A LOT even if it's not overt obedience! 

A picture I've used before of a situation that is fairly definitive of our relationship and what the expectation for obedience is and what the consequences for disobedience end up being: me over Rosa's lap on our bed after a punishment spanking. 

(to be continued)






Monday, May 10, 2021

Togetherness

When it comes to spanking, I have to say that I've been lucky enough to have experienced quite a bit of variety..........though I certainly haven't done everything. One missing twist on the permutations of discipline has been getting spanked along with someone else. 

I will admit, however, that while it would be an interesting experience, any interest on my part is more novelty-driven......or perhaps even completionist. It is not a real desire though. If it was, I probably would have figured out a way by now to have made it happen. 

Being punished alongside someone else was one of my earliest fantasies, as I described in the past with my half-fantasy/half play-acting on my bed as a boy of 11 or so. But that fantasy involved a partner with whom I was romantically interested and I simply don't see the appeal in that anymore. 

I also don't think I'd be eager to be punished along with another guy. I mean, I would, but it wouldn't mean anything past the chance to try something new.  The ideal comrade for a joint punishment would, without doubt, be a submissive Lesbian female! And in my ancient past, there was even a contender with whom something like this came VERY close to happening.........but that was a long time ago and those folks are long gone from my circle. 

Now, however, I can't think of any candidates. Sure, Nickki is kind of submissive to Jean, but (and this is a BIG "but") Nickki is also my part-time Top! Getting smacked alongside her would just feel weird. I prefer to keep her a bit more elevated in my mind; a 'boss', not a fellow subordinate.

I could see myself enjoying sharing the disciplinary stage with a submissive female in a heterosexual D/s arrangement, but again, no one we know (at this time, anyway) fits that description. 

It strikes me as interesting that this notion is quite prevalent in the commercial "spank photo/video" world. You can easily find hundreds of shots of this shared punishment idea displaying every gender combination and discipline situation imaginable. For the sake of today's post though, rather than illustrate it with variety, I am going to present a single sequence from an older "Realspankings" video featuring my faves, Kailee & Lily (her real life sister).

Lily (the blonde) and her younger sister, Kailee Robinson

In this video "Ms. Burns" (a popular spanker and spankee in her own right) does the disciplinary honors. 





While this sequence has its charm, it does not even come CLOSE to the interactions between these two that I TRULY love: Kailee the younger sister spanking her older sibling Lily! Age reversal spanking is FAR more appealing to me than joint suffering, and yet? While there are images of it out there, it is far less prevalent than joint spankings. And that is a shame. 


Friday, May 7, 2021

More on O-Control

Thursday provided an interesting opportunity to revisit the topic of chastity that I covered pretty extensively back in December. The one absent voice on the subject back then was Ana, and due to an early morning event that prompted me thinking of the issue, and the fact that she and I later got to spend quite a bit of time together driving to a seaside National Park and then biking the trail there, we finally had that discussion. 

That morning Rosa and I had both gotten up early and I noticed that as she was checking her phone she was kind of rubbing my leg with her foot. Not one to ignore a hint, I spun around and began kissing those gorgeous toes of hers. 


Now it’s been a while since my last O and I was thinking it would be nice to get some attention….even if it was just a bit of teasing, so I made some gestural hints and when those were ignored, a more direct attempt at taking her hand and directing it to the part of me that was longing for some stimulation. She just said that she had to start work soon but in the next breath asked that I give her an O. I playfully scolded her for saying she had no time to tease me but she felt there was enough time for me to treat her to an orgasm. She accused me of being difficult and seeing the playful dominance she was projecting, relented and obliged. When she was done, she said, “OK I have to work now.” And there I remained still frustrated.

Ah to be mischievously dismissed! Such a power trip for the lady in charge!

This highlighted the reality of living as I do. Having an O or even just getting attention is never a given, but the expectation to deliver one is. Such is a sub’s life! LOL.

Anyway this certainly got me thinking about my chastity lifestyle and it reminded me that I never got Ana’s take on it since she was ridiculously busy at the time. Thursday provided a perfect opportunity to discuss it…...and we did.

To be somewhat complete AND concise, here are the main takeaways from our talk:

-Ana began by making it clear that she herself would NEVER submit to such regulation. I told her that given her dominant personality that just made sense and I would never expect her to be controlled this way.

-But she very quickly followed up by adding that if we just look at our relative personalities and even our roles with each other, she feels such control is not a bad or even strange thing for me or even other submissive types who genuinely benefit from such control.

-She added that as a dominant personality she can relate to being in control of something like this and feels such control is appealing and that she even can see how her decisions for something like this would be very similar to how she views being dominant in a behavioral/punishment situation.  Basically she was saying that while she would never be controlled this way, she’d certainly have no problem with HAVING such control, and that she would be good at it and be very discerning in her decision-making. (She sounded like her mother! LOL)

-I admitted that many motives and factors can influence such authority and that circumstances can make the decision process range from beneficial, to practical, to whimsical, and all the way to mischievous torment. (again, very much how Rosa sees it.) Ana completely agreed, saying that those would be the things she would consider when making such a decision for someone else, and admitted that while practical and loving regulation is sort of the default mode for this,( in order to ensure and maintain the trust of the submissive party) if the people involved were of a certain mindset, then even using tease and denial as pure playful torture was an equally valid choice. She readily admitted to enjoying my suffering at times when I confessed being in a particularly tormented state of frustration after being subjected to 'tease & denial'. Texts revealing such a state for me that coincided with times she herself felt she was suffering through some exam or project at school were particularly appealing for her.

-And lastly, we discussed MY motives for doing this and again she made it clear that despite any occasional doubts that I might have on having relinquished this personal form of gratification to the authority of another, it really is a good thing for me to have trusted others, and now her mother, to have final say in what I get or don’t get. 

One thing that I revealed in the process of having this discussion was that while I have given this authority to several others over the course of my lifetime, it was never as simple as thinking: ‘you’re the Top so you are definitely qualified to have this authority’. Instead my choices have been selective and rooted in a feeling that the person I was entrusting, WAS a talented decision-maker and not just nimble with a paddle. I realized that if someone was dominant but I found their powers of discernment lacking, I might play with them in some ways, but I would not hand over this power to them. Ana said that made sense and fell in line with what she was saying about having to be good at this and having a clear purpose and vision in being the administrator of someone else’s sexual activity. 

It was a good talk, and...........ironically........... much later, Rosa, after some persistent near-begging from me, treated me to a much-needed O. 


Tuesday, May 4, 2021

Busy time

It's that time of year where I just have a lot to do. Today I will be cleaning my larger pond. Yesterday I babysat. And over the weekend we entertained to some degree Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.  (Hooray for vaccinated people!) In short:

My Monster, Ana is home for a week. We have plans to go biking on Thursday.

I finished that nasty garden project and feel very good about the achievement.

The painting I did for my grandson is now hanging over his crib. His birthday is approaching rapidly!

Made some more new drinks but since drink recipes seem to be as popular as an anti-vaxxer at a party thrown by normal people, I probably won't bother posting them. 

On a TTWD-note, I asked for an O from Rosa this past weekend but got turned down. I'm feeling the need and it's making me a bit more subby-minded than usual. We also discussed playing with the pegging machine sometime soon. Rosa seems amused and willing. 

If you're a regular used to comments from me on your own blogs, please know I haven't had much time lately. I will get back into it soon I hope. 

And that's about it for now. I've posted shots of my arbor/deck before, but here is one from this weekend from the perspective of sitting at the table under it and looking out:



Thursday, April 29, 2021

Julie & Omar

In keeping with the ongoing theme of warm weather cocktails and also of my recent experimentation with less typical juice choices, here are two variations of my own on tamarind juice:

The Tamarummy

2 oz clear or brown rum

1 oz Amaretto

3 oz. tamarind juice (again, I just went with Goya)

dash of bitters

Shake ingredients with enough ice to fill a 7 oz glass and pour without straining. I garnished this with a skewered mint leaf and orange peel.


While the Tamarummy isn't bad, and while I don't usually use brown liquors for warm weather drinks, Rosa and I found this bourbon variant to be more interesting, with the whiskey tones working well with the tamarind:

Julie & Omar

1 oz Drambuie

2 oz bourbon

3 oz tamarind juice

dash of bitters

Make it and garnish it the same as with the Tamarummy.

Tamarind doesn't foam as much as passion fruit, but it's still a decent-looking concoction. This is a Tamarummy, but a Julie & Omar looks very much the same......just tastes a bit more interesting.




Wednesday, April 28, 2021

Mushroom wiggle

 As promised, some cocktail ideas for the warmer weather. To start things off, one of my own that already has gotten a bit popular not only with Rosa, but others as well:

Mushroom Wiggle

1 oz Licor 43

1 oz clear rum

3 oz Passion fruit juice (I used Goya)

dash of orange bitters

Shake vigorously with some ice and strain into a fancy 5 oz glass. The agitation will cause the juice to foam naturally. Garnish with lemon.


There are more which I will share as I find time. I have been extremely busy and working harder than someone my age with a bad back should......but the garden project I needed to do, is almost done. In fact, I hope to finish it today. (Everything hurts, BTW. I feel like a truck hit me and the driver wondered what the noise was, backed up over me to check, didn't see me, and drove over me again to resume his trip.)



Monday, April 26, 2021

Sadist

Another typically busy Monday for me. Today I deliver the painting to my Grandson along with a little cheap bottle of bubble liquid with wand. It's a nice day so we should have some fun with that. 

This week I will put up some new cocktail suggestions appropriate for the oncoming war weather. Some are things I found, others are my own concoctions.

In the meantime, here's a bit of vintage wit from B. Kliban:



Friday, April 23, 2021

Legacy work

Before my grandson was born, my daughter asked if I would do a painting for his room similar to the one I did for her back when she was a baby. I agreed but said it might take me a while to execute the request. I recently finished the piece just with some time to spare before reaching his first birthday. 

The painting is more of an illustration, like you'd see in a children's book, than a serious work of art, and depicts a scene from my SIL's favorite childhood book: My Side of the Mountain. It was this story that was requested as the theme of the painting, but other than that, the actual scene was up to me. 

This is the finished piece. It is 30" X 40" in acrylic:


It's not the typical thing I show here, but I was pleased with it and felt like it might be worth sharing. I would be particularly curious to hear from anyone who has read the book, since I read it before coming up with this scene, and tried to be very faithful to the details the author describes. 


Thursday, April 22, 2021

Batshit


Recently my dear buddy, Merry used the phrase "batshit crazy" and it coincided quite unexpectedly with an E-Bay score this very morning. (no it wasn't a box full of expired Xanax NOR a crate of roosting bats.)  What it was was a set of black-stemmed glasses. 

Very similar to this style, except a less rounded bowl and it's a set of 4 rather than six.

OK, so now you must be scratching your head thinking, "KDP has either lost it, or HE is the link to "batshit"." Not so fast. There IS a connection....which also ties in to a recent comment on Fondles' about shopping at thrift stores.....and possibly even ANOTHER older comment dealing specifically with my fondness for bats. So here is the thread of events that tie this all in:

1: A while back I am shopping at my favorite thrift store and manage to get a set of six of these same glasses for like $1 each, maybe $1.50. 

2: To me they are crying out to be made into classy/creepy table glassware to go with our Halloween dinner setting......but they need help.

Our Halloween table from this year. I never loved the plain glasses. And you can see the bat theme already starting. 

3: I order a set of inexpensive silver bat charms from Amazon.

4: When they arrive I modify them with some grinding so they can be securely glued to the glasses with strong, durable, two-part epoxy.

5: They are coming along nicely when..........I drop one. (damned arthritis)

6: I now have 5 cool glasses, and am not liking that I could very likely not have enough for a typical 6-person dinner party. However, these are not current and very specific. The odds of me finding these again at a good price are not in my favor. A happy project has turned a little sour.

7: Enter E-Bay and a cooperative vendor who was willing to accept a lower offer for his used glasses. (Still way more than what I got the originals for, but also less than what I have seen them go for.)

And so, with one confirmation and payment, my glasses should be on their way.....and if I don't drop any THIS time, I'll have a set of 9.....which should be adequate for our needs. 

And what does the finished product look like? Well.....like this:

I have some plastic Halloween glasses but I kind of prefer glass. Nice Halloween glasses are out there, but they are VERY expensive. Some of the better ones I've seen go for as much as $12 a glass, sometimes more. This very economical project was the the perfect solution. Not too over-the-top, a little classy, definitely bat-encrusted, and quite frugal. Now I just need to wait until October to use them!


Wednesday, April 21, 2021

Proxy time.

 

Proxy situations beg the question of just who the hell am I? LOL

It’s hard to believe that it has been four years since the last time I acted as someone’s ‘punishment proxy’. (See  “A Proxy Once More” July 29, 2017 in the Featured Post column in the margin.)

I hadn’t planned it either. Instead it just happened. It began with an innocent text to Nickki over a moulding job that needed some TLC. She currently has a “houseguest” in the form of her former SIL’s mother, an elderly woman with occasional bi-polar flare-ups. Whenever I’ve met her she was the sweetest thing, but Nickki assured me that there is an entirely contrasting side to her. She is due to stay with Nickki and Jean for as many as 6 more weeks, maybe more, maybe less. But in that time she has already caused incredible stress to my friends, Nickki in particular.

The more she told me, the more obvious her stressed tone seeped into her texts. It took only a few lines before the proxy idea popped into my head. I had previously discussed proxy situations with Nickki (particularly my time as Ana’s proxy for the closet) so she had a pretty good idea of what I was suggesting. We discussed it a bit, and since it’s a simple offer, Nickki quickly agreed to the offer and said she would keep track of her guest’s offenses and then handle them through me at a later date when she leaves. So far she already has two.  The positive aspect for her is that when something happens, she can write it down and turn the aggravation into something for future anticipation. Instead of feeling powerless, she can feel like retribution will take place, and all she needs to do is be patient and bide her time.

We also discussed my need/condition of not being “me doing a favor” or worse “me receiving a favor of play” but rather “me BEING her guest” and getting exactly what Nickki feels SHE deserves.  Since we’ve discussed this before, Nickki understood and even saw the sense in that. Her one warning to me (which she repeated again later) was that now that the offer has been made and accepted, not to try to back out. That hit me with a dose of reality. Nickki is obviously not reticent about taking full advantage of my proxy offer, even as she appreciates it and has already thanked me for it. By expressing her adamant stance on “no backsees” as she put it, she is telling me that she is now relying on me to come through.  I get that. And I assured her my offer was sincere. 

Moments after the offer was discussed, and mutually agreed to, the ramifications of it seeped in. I am now honor bound to essentially stand in for someone who has already pissed off Nickki and has about 6 more weeks to add to that list. I am also dealing with Nickki who is not someone who sees a hard spanking as anything other than a deserved consequence. If sufficiently riled, she will see a bare offered bottom as the totally roastable but ultimately unbreakable target of her ire. I have had her spank moderately and extensively, and she is not hesitant to keep going until she is satisfied. If that bottom is mine, but I have clearly offered it in place of her guest’s, she will certainly and without question spank it as such. In a recent conversation with Nickki, I flatly admitted to sincere admiration for this ability of hers. 

While technically inaccurate in many details, this shot sort of sums up what I feel is a fair representation of the psychology of a proxy punishment. While the party I am substituting myself for will not be present or even aware of my situation, both Nickki and I will be seeing her as integral to the whole ordeal. In this shot I imagine the girl in the red dress is the one who is actually guilty, but it is her friend that is getting punished for her. 

Now me? Why do I agree to be a proxy? I think I’ve mentioned it before. Like Tom Sawyer, I see taking someone else’s punishment as the epitome of gallant gestures. And I’m a sucker for gallant gestures. In the case of the proxy situations I have been in, that gesture is geared more towards the spanker, who is usually someone I care about, than the spared victim.  And perhaps that’s why they can’t be fun roleplays for me. There is nothing gallant about playing a fun game. There is no sacrifice in getting an enjoyable experience. 

The famous "I done it!"-scene in Tom Sawyer as rendered by Norman Rockwell. This scene, and the expression on Becky Thatcher's face inspired all of my proxy adventures......except for the "play" ones. 

Yesterday I actually spoke with Nickki on my long drive to babysit my grandson and we covered a lot of things….and this was one of them. Nickki had described several more incidents with her guest that were indeed upsetting, and I joked that if this keeps up I may need to take out an insurance policy before showing up for my eventual proxy session. She laughed and said, “well, you’re up to 400 smacks already,” with the clear insinuation that the total is only going to go up from there.

Nickki will have little problem in taking advantage of my offer.

I also explained more about my reasons for offering to be a proxy and she seemed to appreciate the insight….and the offer itself. I would imagine that the natural assumption for someone like me to make an offer like this would be that I enjoy being spanked. And while that is true, it is a complex truth. 

To be honest, I do enjoy being a proxy, but ironically, I can’t enjoy that role if the spanking itself is enjoyable. So, to be a good proxy experience and for the gesture to mean anything at all, the spanking simply must be unpleasant……….. and the worse the better.  Thankfully, Rosa understands this and since it’s important to me, relaxes into the offer to treat me as the offending party and does so without guilt or hesitation. With Nickki, she seems to understand as well, and if her tone and past history with me are any indicators, I’m sure she too will do her best to forget it’s me when the time comes. So if the punishment concludes with Nickki exhilarated and refreshed, flushed clean of all her repressed frustration and anger, it will be worth every day I can't sit without wincing. And for me that’s the ‘enjoyable’ part: the knowing this is definitely going to happen at some point and there’s no backing out, the knowing Nickki won’t go easy on me, the humor in the overall situation itself, the little tidbits of accumulating offenses, Nickki’s occasional reminders, even the fact that this person for whom I am standing in will never know what price I will be paying for her misdeeds, all of it. But I suppose, like Tom Sawyer, the BEST part is knowing my gesture will be appreciated. 

Monday, April 19, 2021

Footitude

 My weekend was pretty good and included a much-needed O. ( my last one was March 26th, so this was just over three weeks...........not a record by any means, but a bit longer than what we've been currently doing. In the past, a month was routine, now we try to do them every week or two.) Rosa managed to wrangle a couple for herself as well. LOL But the route to O-land for me a was a little more challenging than usual. Of course it involved our electric massager and Rosa's feet.....BUT it also involved me wearing a combination of our KTB-like "spiked tube" and leather "cock strap". (Think "cock ring" but leather.)

The idea started out as a teasing session with the spikes as a bit of added torment, but that teasing.....(me kissing one of Rosa's feet while she used to other to toy with my spike-encircled member....HER idea BTW. LOL) soon led to her getting very horny and getting an O out of the deal. This put her in a good mood so when we switched from foot stimulation to the massager, and I got close to orgasm, she consented to let me have one.......BUT with the spiked tube remaining on for it!

And that's what happened. In the past, an O with the tube on could be excruciating, but I think my body has learned to adapt a bit and while it hurts, it's really just not that bad. Yesterday, I loved the release and barely felt the spikes. Go figure.

Anyway, that little adventure started our day off right for us both and the rest of the day was just as fun. We decided to walk the Brooklyn Bridge and have some lunch in the city. It was a nice break from the past Covid-conscious abstinence of the recent past. 

View looking toward Manhattan.

Stella-esque.

Rosa in the distance on the walkway.

Today though I don't have much time before heading out to babysit, but the recent foot-o has left me in a mood.  So here are some foot pictures that I feel represent a certain array of attitudes regarding the presentation of one's own feet for attentive consideration or actual attention. I noticed in my search that a lot of foot models and even amateurs on cell phones are young. It seems like the youth of today are quite into feet for some reason. Which is a good thing I suppose. I know so many folks who are very self-conscious about them. But not these ladies:

Unpainted and natural feet.....that are beautiful!

Fresh as the outdoors.

Proudly showing off her tootsies.

Distracted......she with her laptop....the viewer with those lovely soles.

Nonchalant......with some attitude. This shot is like a magnet for me. Probably my favorite in the batch!

Cheerfully in your face.

Straight from her sneakers to you. Love her expression too.

Some ladies like to dress them up.....

......with others, it's a very 'as is' sort of thing.


I just like this shot.

She knows you like them.


She knows what you want to do with them.....and she seems happy to oblige.


But this confident gal EXPECTS it. LOL